Eat Pray, Love
I’m not sure if any of you have experienced this concept before, but I’m that a few of you have. It’s the question of where do I fit in, in this world? I think the travel bug must stem from not only a love of travel, but a curiosity of what or who else is out there. Growing up, I really never found that sense of self and as an adult I find myself struggling with it each and every day. Finding myself in a world that wants to live the married, white picket fence, and two kids life, is considered “acceptable”. Living a life on the road with adventure and exploration is considered taboo. I’ve lived an untraditional life since I left home at 18 and have searched for what feels like home. After finding a man at 18, married at 19 and divorced at 28, I attempted to live in that box. I was brought up in a world where when you made your bed, you were to lay in it until you died no matter how things got. I was supposed to love forever and learning far too quickly that it wasn’t what it appeared to be, I tried to make it work for far too long. I made more mistakes in love and in life than I can count, but I also learned a lot along the way.
So now that I’m the over 30, I am continually asked “when are you going to have kids, how many, and why don’t you come over and spend time with mine”. To me, it’s almost like a death sentence. My mother even asked me a few days ago about the level of regret I would go through if I didn’t have them and went through with the surgery. Well, you already know my answer. I can’t judge others for wanting that part of life, but I would also hope that others would finally stop judging me for that. My goal is to travel, see the world, and find people that have experienced this type of life. I think for me, it’s more than just the travel, it’s the doing the Eat, Pray, Love experience and finding myself along the way. Reading books like this and Under the Tuscan Sun brought a warmth to my heart. I found hope when I read them by finding others with the same spirit. This is certainly a journey, and while I’m scared to death to share this with you, I hope I’ll find others to connect with share this experience. Maybe this will help some of you almost as much as it helps me. While this is a travel blog as a whole, I intend to incorporate a bit of the human element along the way.